Midnight Bloom is now Moonlight!

I desided to change my book's name and I am almost done with the first chapter. It is doing great!

Love Always,
Jamie Nickerson

Gateway School

At this stupid LITTLE school all day long!

Emo Kid Lyrics

Dear Diary,
Mood- apathetic

My life is spiraling downwards
I couldn't get enough money to go to the blood red romance
and suffocate me dry concert
that sucks 'cause they play some of my favorite songs
like stab my heart because I love you,
and rip apart my soul,
and of course stabbity rip stab, stab.
And it doesnt help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either
like that guy from that band can do.
Somedays...

I'm an emo kid
non-conforming as can be
you'd be non-conforming to if you looked just like me
I have paint on my nails and make up on my face
I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
'cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression
most just call me a fag
'cause our dudes look like chicks
and our chicks look like dykes
'cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat,
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows,
I must be emo
I'm dark and sensitive with low self-esteem
the way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sisters mascara and now I'm grounded for a week
Sulking, and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me
it's never any fun
they say they already have a pussy-
they don't need another one

Stop my breathing and slit my throat,
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows,
I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes,
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

My life is just a black abyss; you know it's so dark
and it's suffocating me
grabbing hold of me and tightening its grip
tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans
which look great on me by the way

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection
I write in my live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I told my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
you can read me Catcher in the Rye and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
if I said I liked girls
I'd only be half right

I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo,
I must be emo
Screw X-Box I play old school nintendo,
I must be emo
I like to whine and hit my parentals
I must be emo,
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo

My parents just don't get me you know
they think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy
well, a couple guys
but I mean, its the 2000s.
Can't 2, or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay?
I mean chicks dig that kind of thing anyways
I don't know diary
Somtimes I think you're the only one that gets me
You're my best friend...
I feel like tacos.

May 04

Hey i had a great day today with my dad (real), and mom. I love them so much. I had a amazing day. hope tomarrow is the same.

about Midnight bloom

Here is what Midnight Bloom is about: Midnight Bloom is about a girl named, Danielle Stewrt. She is the new teen at school at Gates High School in Northern Cailforina. She meets some very ineresting people here. five of them happens to be vampires. I can't wait till chaper one is done and when it is, I will post the first chapter as soon as I can. :-D

Goooooood mornin'!

lol I just wanted to say good morning to everyone and i hope my day is great today
:-). MY DADDY IS COMING TODAY I AM SO EXCITED yeah he is just visting though...its all good :-D

-Jamie

Night May 03

So i had a werid weekand. Fights, dancing, love, bestfirends, shopping, SHOES, lol what else? But it is time for me to go to bed now and get ready for....MAY 04. LOL just hyper. I am ready to see my boyfriend tomarrow.

-Jamie

PS. As soon as my first chapter of my book is done i will post it on my blog. My book is called Midnight Bloom. It is about Vampires. The Twilight saga inspired me so much. Thank you Stephine Meyer. Bed time...night. :-)

MY MOM'S DAMN BOYFRIEND KEEPS FUCKING IRRATING ME. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. HE TREATS ME LIKE A BAG OF SHIT. I WANT TO LIVE WITH MY DAD AGAIN. I MISS HIM HE LIVES IN VIGINIA AND WE LIVE HERE IN STUPID FUCKING NORTH CAROLINA... WHY DID WE HAVE TO FUCKIN MOVE HERE. I HATE THIS PLACE. IF I DON'T GET OUT SOON I'M GOING TO GO CRAZY. I AM LOCKED UP IN THE HOUSE ALL DAY AND I CAN'T TAKE IT. I AM TIRED OF SCREAMING AND CRYING. I HAVE TO FIND A WAY OUT. I CAN'T WAIT TILL I GO TO MY DAD'S FOR SUMMER. ONE MORE DAY HERE AND I MIGHT DIE. LIVING WITH MY MOM AND HER BOYFRIEND IN THERE HOUSE IS LIKE MY OWN HELL. MY DAD'S HOUSE IS MORE LIKE HEVEN TO ME. I NEED TO GO NOW. I CAN'T RUNAWAY THEY WILL FINE ME QUICK. I NEED TO MOVE OUT NOW. I DONT HAVE A JOB WHITCH MEANS I HAVE NO MONEY AT ALL.. IF I ALEAST HAD ENOUGH MONEY I WOULD GO TO A HOTEL. MY CUTS ARE GETTING DEEPER IN MY SKIN. I CAN'T HELP IT I HAVE TO CUT MYSELF IT IS EASIER FOR ME. ONLY IF I HAD A BETTER PLACE TO LIVE. I AM CALLING MY FRIEND LAMONTA AND MAYBE HE CAN HELP. BUT AS FOR NOW, I AM IN HELL.

-Jamie

First Blog

Hey This is my very first blog and I am excited and I am so bored out of my mind. I will Post a blog everyday...I hope Just to be checking in.

Anyone that is reading this please add my myspace and twitter.

MYSPACE- http://www.myspace.com/nicholas4224

TWITTER- http://twitter.com/Jamie_Cullen

I dont remember my Facebook url but, I will get it soon